chapter 5: the rebirth

Dear flowers,

I've attempted to rebirth this blog about 5 times, under different names and with different motivations. To my despair thepolkadotteacher.blogspot was taken (since I'm smitten for anything polka dotted at the moment) which is actually a pretty rockin' blog. I named this blog 'shorter than my students' simply because it's true and I'm learning to love myself for it.

My motivation for creating what is hopefully going to be my last blog is my confuzzled-ment. Next year when I graduate with a primary school degree I see 4 potential and equally enticing paths. (1)Do masters or honors? (2)Do an early childhood degree? (3)Jump into the deepest end of the pool and move to the country for a year working full time as a teacher? Mum says no, dad says yes. (4)Or stay in Sydney, working casual jobs and chasing down opportunities? Trying to choose which slice of the cake is the most appealing.

I have also been 'jokingly' confused at work as being one of the kiddies which has made me feel, on the one hand cute, but on the other like I can't be taken seriously because of my height. I have this recurring nightmare that I'll walk into my first classroom with most of my students literally looking down at me. Build a bridge and get over it, right? Right!

So this is me as an undergrad, awaiting pracs, being a tutor, working in after school care, childcare, party planning and learning about what's "totes awesome" from my younger cousins.

I've downloaded about 18 teaching blogs onto my iphone and still don't completely envisage how this blog will unfold. And someone wise once told me about the benefits of not planning things to death, mainly because you distract yourself from all the little, more candid and valuable things that are few in number. I've noticed that many bloggers go down the money making route by making templates for lesson plans and honestly I can't help but wish I could afford them all sometimes. But at this present moment I don't think I'll jump on that bandwagon. I foresee, for this blog, a scrapbook containing material that is fresh, inspiring, playful and oozing authenticity.

I am to the core grateful that I have had the chance to go to school and to uni to be able to even have the opportunity to make my own decisions about my future. It is my dream to help all my students, despite their weaknesses and handicaps that society doesn't offer a hand for, see that learning is sometimes painful, sometimes beautiful but always lifelong.

Are you ready to be apart of my story for which I have no idea of its ending?

Scary + exciting. Scariting? Oh, and another thing you should know about me, I like to create new words and also use puns because I think I'm the punniest. I'll stop before you PUNch me, virtually.


Love,
Miss Fun size